Tonight I am tired of everything. seem to be stuck in a perpetual state of moving on. Wish I could just get there already. Have I lost my sense of reality in my day dreams. And when did the day dreams become reality? starting towards massive changes leaves me filled with doubt. Not sure if I can really do what everyone thinks I can. Including myself...If it seems to good to be true it usually is. what does that mean anyway. Angry at alex for making me love him..then making me choose between myself and him. What good is love if you fall apart around it. He doesnt seem to grasp me in the way I think I really am...but who is right? Got tired of the constant battle and always having to prove myself to someone who should just love me anyway. Work is one thing but I seem to have lost my soul somewhere around this turn in relationships. looking forward to having some mental space to myself...maybe then it wont feel so crowded